I've always struggled with that fine line between going with flow and accepting things as they are, yet realising that something needs to change. I've come to finally accept that not everything makes perfect logical sense sometimes, and our ability to respond, or our 'respons-ability' can differ depending on the context. One thing is for sure and that is contradictions exist, nothing is ever black and white despite how much we want it to be. The only thing I can be assured of is that with every choice I make, rightly or wrongly, creates a shadow of consequence which goes on to form the tapestry of my life. So long as I can keep my mind open and curious enough to keep learning from what didn't work before, then for me that's all I ask of myself. I can only be responsible for me (and my children while they are in my care), however everybody I have and will ever meet will help me come to know myself a little more each time and I hope vice versa. I always find it hard to learn what to hang on to and what to move away from, it's never clear cut and is always a risk. Im convinced that investing in others or external factors to determine my happiness inevitably brings with it disappointment. I can be self determining, carving and creating the life I want with what I've got, rather than letting others determine how my life will be!. It's so easy to become fossilized in thinking, not daring to think outside the 'norm' or the square, yet beyond the boundaries placed on and by ourselves lies possibilities. Not being prepared to change my thinking brings with it tension that is only there because I make it that way, yet it's often the only option I know and to let go of it is scary.. What will exist in the space if I just let go? As the cliché goes, we often need to lose ourselves to find ourselves. Sometimes nothing makes any sense and sometimes non – sense can be the most powerful position to grow from by the emergence of something new. Whether we like it or not there is one thing that's guaranteed in our lives and that is change, and the only truth that we can ever have is the one we create with what we are prepared to allow.
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