Lockdown bought me face to face with the duality of perspective that only change can bring. Discomfort is not something I 'seek out', but when it's here I tend to wallow in it, torn between striving and thriving in it. The pause button on life was 'hit' for whatever reason, and maybe it was not only for Mother Nature, but for us inhabitants as well. I for one grabbed the chance to explore this new space knowing full well that I was unlikely to have this opportunity again. Rather than focusing on the irritation of upheaval, I made a conscious decision to do something else, and that was to explore my values, beliefs and principles whilst external distractions came to a grinding halt. What I discovered frankly surprised me! Just when I thought I knew what I was about, something comes along and makes me question everything!. What I discovered was confronting; and when we are faced with something that we know deep down is holding us back, we have to make a choice. It's in the choice I find that the internal battle is activated, and I had to work at having to override my rational mind which was hot on my heels. I literally heard the 'inner child' in me instructing me to "do as you're told Carla" and I had to tell 'her' to sit down!. The 'pause' was powerful, and my hearts desire won over my analytical brain, thank goodness. I can only describe my hearts call like experiencing a new breath, a moment, a stopping of time, and in this space not only did I find mental freedom but extreme clarity as well. However I had to surrender to it and that always takes a degree of courage. Looking back, how could I have not seen what now I see as so obvious? This surrendering to me is the 'gift' and I so want to feel that again and again, it's better than any drug I've ever tried. Addictive? yes but a healthy one and an addiction that brings me a peace filled life. I also know it's the place that I don't get to stay for long periods of time as I realise that if I lived in that endless state of freedom that this space gifts me, where everything is satisfying and blissful, then I would miss the experience of the tension that exists in the striving and the attainment to get to this space. That pinch of discomfort to me is the catalyst that I need to keep my momentum going towards what I can only describe as joy or my ongoing alignment to who I believe whoever 'me' is. This ongoing work in progress I am more than happy to accept, and Im not sure whether it's the exploration that might even excite me more than the 'result'? If you are someone whose ready to try and understand your own need for change, then Im facilitating a small workshop on the 6th June where as a group, we can discover or re-awaken some of our hearts desires where you may decide to be called to action? or not. Please message me on fb or www.carlascoachingforhealth.com as it will be limited numbers. Arohanui Carla.
Hello New World! - at least that's what it feels like. A world full of familiar faces and places, and yet everything feels so very different! Im wondering as Im writing this how many other people have found this to be their experience as well? How have you been coping in this new landscape? Has anything surfaced that has needed your attention? It certainly did for me, resulting in letting some things go that frankly took me by surprise. I did however find it strangely comforting to know that I wasn't alone in facing challenges, and that COVID 19 had affected everyone one way or another. If you too had a major change amidst all this upheaval, then my wish for you is that it's turned out, or is going to turn out for the better. Taking a leap of faith either through our own choice or because of something outside our control will create a whole new trajectory, and we simply have to keep as steady as we can whilst we wait for things to settle. To try and fight change will just create more anxiety, and we know this if we are honest with ourselves. If we are panicking then we may miss the new doors that miraculously open offering us new opportunities. Maybe these possibilities have been quietly waiting for our arrival for some time? I know that's what it felt like for me anyway. Behind these doors for me was a cascade of new opportunities, that had I not taken the jump into the unknown, may never have surfaced. Those interested in the Johari Psychological model will find relevent reference here, and those interested in Quantum science will have come across the latest in the relationship between our thinking/emotions and cells. Science has revealed that up to 95% of illness and dis-ease are stress related, so it's certainly worth a bit of research. What informs our reason for making changes only we get to decide, and when change is forced on us? then we still have some control - just not initially if we are triggered into a fight or flight response. In this state it's pointless trying to figure anything out, we just have to surf the wave until we find enough internal steadiness to be able to make our next move. We have to start with recognising what it is that needs to change, or at least what is it that we don't want. So step one is assessing how we feel. For me I then had to accept the feelings of anxiety that came along with all that realization, rather than pushing them back down and trying to rationalize my way out of them again, I said OK "lets feel this"!.. Ouch!. No more denial for me, my excuses had run their course. When we are able to face some of our rawest emotions, (and I recommend not alone) then the symptoms of stress can start to move through us rather than being constantly and consistently stored. When we keep rejecting what deep down we know we must do, our stress hormones continue to run amok wreaking havoc on our prescious bodies. For me It's been the ideal time for reflection and prioritising what habits and people stay in my life, and although this has been quite a dramatic shift, I intend to keep up this practice so I can live a life more aligned to my values and principles. The veil has been lifted and there is no turning back, we don't get to 'unknow' what we now know. An invisible wall has fallen to reveal a layer of 'truth' that I needed to claim. Whilst it scared the hell out of me initially? its also bought out the best of me and my 'letting go' has allowed something so much more joyful 'in'. Maybe this time of cleansing hasn't just been for our beautiful mother earth, maybe it's been our time individually and collectively as well.
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